I love you.
it’s hard to say, it’s hard to admit.
I loved you for all the weakness you showed and the strength that pulled me through.
I know this space between us is what you needed, what you deserved.
and it hurts to know I use to count down the days, the minutes until I saw you.
like counting stars in an endless sky.
I would counted forever just to be what you wanted, what you needed.
and it’s still hard knowing letting you go was what you wanted most.
I could have traveled miles back to you, I planned my life with you in it. I pictured the mountains, I pictured a family. I pictured your smile there, just you and that smile. Always greeting me on the best and the worst days. I saw you.
But i know you giving up and moving on is what you needed, what you deserved the most.
I loved you and from this day on, I don’t.